Lesson #3: Education is Key to Informed Consent, Everything Else is Coercion

Part 1 of 2.

When our third child was born, I was not prepared. I was 41 weeks, and I still feel guilty for how ill-prepared I was the morning after his birth. No, I’m not talking about the car seats we installed, crib we dusted off, clothes we dug in boxes to find… I’m talking his birth vaccines. My midwife and I had spoken extensively about my wishes, and she agreed. I didn’t birth with her or that facility. I will say my obstetrician was excellent, and my nurses were incredible (minus one or two), but the pediatrician was out of line.

I declined the Hep B vaccine. She came in three or four times saying he needed it and it was safe. I said no each time. During her last intrusion, she said she spoke to her supervisors and was going to make some calls. I told her to do what she had to do; he wasn’t getting the vaccine. She didn’t come back. Were they going to inoculate him against my will?! They can’t do that. That’s a direct violation of human rights. Were they going to take him and seize custody?! I’ve heard rumors of this… I won’t let them! I asked my nurse to grab the vaccine insert from the vaccine lot; she brought it to me quickly. Boom. Proof. The adverse events were clearly written.

I was exhausted. I had already been up around 30 hours, in which time I had a baby! My husband had gone home earlier to relieve our friend who was with our other two, but now I was panicked. Stress, exhaustion, and panic were a recipe for disaster. I called him. He said he would come and bring my laptop. I hurried to pull my files. I couldn’t access my desktop, so I went to the databases to grab articles. I couldn’t find my 1000 peer-reviewed studies file anywhere. Why was the internet SO SLOW?! I didn’t even have Word on this laptop. It was a mess. I had compiled some files, but it wasn’t organized.

It was 5 pm now; I was still copying files from databases. My nurse walks in, nervous. CPS and the police were in the unit, and she didn’t know what was happening. I was NOT giving them my baby, that’s what was happening. My husband arrives. An officer walks in with a CPS official to issue me an affidavit from the district attorney that the pediatrician was going to press criminal charges should harm come to my newborn. I asked the officer “Who would be responsible if harm came to him from the vaccine?” He said he “assume[d] whoever made the vaccine.” I laughed at that one and told him the doctor is free of liability, and so is the maker of the vaccine. The 1986 National Childhood Vaccine Injury Act frees the manufacturer AND doctor from all liability should a child be harmed. Instead, they put into place a vaccine court for compensation. If your claim is approved, you sue the government. Your case is managed by government-appointed lawyers and heard by government judges. Awkward. Don’t take my word for it. Google it.

Anyhow, the officer handed me this paper that I promptly read and placed on the table. I told them they were giving us no options. He said “Nobody is going to force you to do anything today. I just have to issue this to you.” They left. I likely wasted his time, oops. I don’t think they realized the gravity of the situation. Nobody does. I went to the state CPS website to see how they got involved and noted that it is considered “medical neglect” to withhold vaccines in our state. WHAT. I was shocked.

The next morning a new nurse comes in and asks what has been going on and hears me out. She voiced her acknowledgment and seemed to agree with me. She returns later to ask if my other children were seen anywhere in the community. I asked her why it was important, and she said, “I’m not completely sure, but it sounds like the pediatrician is digging into your other kids’ files and trying to prove medical neglect.” I was floored.

When did parental duties to raise children and care for their general health fall upon doctors? When did the work of parents need to be approved by doctors at routine “well child” visits? Have parents lost all ability to raise healthy children without help from the medical industry?

I have always felt that routine appointments, with no concerns, were a waste of time and resources. Doctors should be spending their time caring for at-risk and at-need children. They should additionally promote wellness in populations that are not the picture of health. I do not want to monopolize the time of a physician to show them a healthy child. First of all, my kids don’t need to go to a location of sick children so they can pick up mutated viruses and resistant bacteria. They do enough of that at playgrounds and grocery stores. Secondly, it is a literal waste of time, and I always leave feeling like I gained nothing. Third, healthcare is not mandatory. It is available for your use, should you need the services. Yes, first-time parents should use their resources and visit the doctor with their concerns and alleviate worry about their child’s development for their age. If you have concerns, see a doctor! Totally appropriate. Seeing a doctor with no complaints? Odd. But, maybe that’s me…

Part two to follow in the next few days.

Shalom, light, and love.



From Nazi War Crimes to Mandatory Vaccines: A loss of informed consent

We don’t perform drug trials on pregnant people or infants because it isn’t ethical. If a person cannot give their informed consent (fetuses, infants, and children), they cannot consent. This duty falls to the parent. Fetuses, infants, and children up to a certain age cannot tell us what symptoms they are experiencing. It would be unethical to place them in experimental drug trials. How much data could we obtain without extensive intervention? Not much. The risks don’t outweigh the benefits. So we don’t test medications on pregnant people, infants, and children… (like they did in Nazi Medical Experiments)

Instead, we freely administer vaccines to them and “monitor” postmarketing studies of which nobody participates. Even worse. Have you been pregnant? Were you vaccinated? Did they contact the manufacturer about your outcomes? Did they survey you at all? I’m guessing you did not participate.

If you were born in the 1990s or earlier, you were likely given 4 vaccines as a baby. 7 different diseases/antigens for 14 doses total. If you were born before 1983, you were given half that. If vaccines were effective, why did they completely reformulate ALL of our generation’s vaccines and replace them with new versions that are administered more often?

We don’t test babies, yet in 2018 we inoculate infants with 23 vaccines. That is 26 different antigens given 3-4x EACH by age 1. We put approx 85 doses of foreign genetic material mixed with other substances into an infant’s body within their first year of life. EIGHTY-FIVE. That is six times the number we got as infants! Is it of no wonder that parents are pausing to question this practice?

Remember, this is the body of an infant. Infants have immature immune systems. We know this. This is common knowledge. They don’t mount immune responses like adults, and we still don’t fully understand all the components of immunity. Yet, we are putting these substances into that infant and calling it SAFE AND EFFECTIVE. Why?! We are treading murky waters. We essentially force 85 doses of foreign viruses/bacteria into the most vulnerable immune system, in the name of protection that has not been proven. Correlation doesn’t equal causation… right? What’s more is, we don’t follow up with these children over time. We don’t measure outcomes. We have an opportunity to learn, but we destroy it by avoiding the topic.

There is no questioning vaccines because it is drilled into our (society, medical world) heads that all “vaccines are safe and effective.” This is a blanket statement no matter if the vaccine has been around 2 years or 2 days. Blanket. These claims are made without any data to agree or disagree with the statement. Again, we don’t do safety studies on infants and pregnant people. And, the postmarketing studies are buried. Vaccine inserts, that you’re never given at a pediatric visit, list adverse events under “postmarketing studies.” So there are documented risks, yet we are to believe and state to our patients that vaccines are generally SAFE? What?

Parents must know the risks. This is informed consent. Parents provide care for their kids, they love them more than any outside influence. Medical practitioners do not care for your kids as YOU care for them. They are not held responsible if an injury occurs post-vaccination. Parents must live with the injury, so PARENTS MUST MAKE THE DECISION. Informed decisions.

Many people call for mandatory vaccinations. This is not informed consent. When informed consent is lost, medical tyranny is imminent. No government agency should control your body. Ever. It’s dangerous, always has been, always will be.

With no safety trials (because they didn’t want to “leave babies unprotected”) the CDC recommends we inoculate EVERY BABY and refuses to acknowledge any adverse events or lifelong medical conditions in conjunction with the schedule. Not only recommend, they demand it from providers who pressure parents. This is not a system built to deliver safe and effective medical care. This is risky business. The risks are all for the parents and the business is all government.

We have a sick generation of kiddos with a medley of autoimmune conditions. Could it be, perhaps, we are destroying or negatively altering the mechanisms of immunity by creating a false response with immunizations in an immature immune system? Are immunizations confusing the body’s normal functions and causing an overreaction or permanent damage? Why aren’t we considering the implications of this practice in long-term health? How is it possible that injecting genetic components with excipients are not part of the health equation? Why aren’t medical practitioners questioning the CDC? Why aren’t we demanding answers? Blind faith is dangerous. Blind following is detrimental. (See Nazi Medical Experiments.)

May your mind be open, heart be brave, soul be wise, and spirit be strong.

Shalom, light, and love.


Sites to Consider:
How the Advisory Committee on Immunization Practices (ACIP) approves new vaccines, video clips: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7UzQqan3uF8

WWII links to Nazi Medical Experimentation:

Vaccine Schedules from the CDC:
1983: https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/schedules/images/schedule1983s.jpg
1989: https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/schedules/images/schedule1989s.jpg
2005: https://www.cdc.gov/mmwr/preview/mmwrhtml/mm5351-Immunizationa1.htm
2017: https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/schedules/downloads/past/2017-child.pdf
Main page: https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/schedules/resource-library/index.html


Lesson #2: Medical Professionals are Partners in Your Care, Not Dictators

I hesitate to continue to share my experiences, but the truth will set me free… Right?!

When I had my second child, I was already wary of vaccinating because of my firstborn’s reaction. I didn’t understand how something we deem outright “safe” in the medical world would have any downsides. Every single medication I’ve administered comes with risks. I tell my patients the side effects and let them make those choices. Informed consent. My mind thought vaccines didn’t have any side effects… or at least I never looked into it. My pediatrician never talked to me about risks, nor did any nurse who had injected my first child. But WHY?! Isn’t that our job?? We weigh risks and benefits. How are parents not subject to knowing the risks for their children?

I was tormented the months following my second child’s birth. This was cognitive dissonance. I decided that the “combo vaccine” (Pediarix) was too much of a risk to benefit my infant. I would further limit his schedule to DTaP alone. I was most worried about pertussis. Have you seen the videos of those tiny airways struggling for air when a baby has pertussis? It’s frightening.

I searched for a highly-rated pediatrician for his two-month shots. It was an hour drive, but they had great reviews. That day was surprising. We showed up and I declined everything but the DTaP injection. The pediatrician was NOT HAPPY. He was actually pretty pissed off. He wasn’t sad or concerned; he was irate. I didn’t really care about his opinion after he raised his voice and told me my baby “needed them” and he didn’t “understand why A NURSE wouldn’t consent for BASIC medical care.” Uhh… okay. Was that supposed to offend me into consent? All it did was foster more questions.

He definitely didn’t want to understand my reasons. I get it. Medical people are BUSY. They are also pressured by protocols. I do not have time to look up and memorize every risk factor for the medications I administer on an emergent basis. But those are EMERGENT. Those risks are higher than most medication risks, including death or disability. Have you seen drug commercials? Yikes. I worked in a practice that frequently prescribed antibiotics; I knew the indications and risks like the back of my hand. We also gave the same medications over and over. It is easier to educate on treatments and medications you are used to providing, or is it? When I send a patient out with a prescription now, I will give them the indication (and mechanism of action when asked) and advise them to LOOK UP THE RISKS, but common ones included [list of 3-4 symptoms] and maybe how to combat those effects. It is up to them. It’s the patient’s decision to take medications or administer them to their children. We are partners in their health, not dictators. We don’t own their bodies; we simply provide the options. So why was this different with infant vaccine schedules? They are not mandatory (lest we travel back to Hitler era medical practice and war atrocities) they are *recommended* by the CDC.

I went home and did some research and stumbled upon vaccine manufacturer websites and I finally READ THE LABELS of vaccines… They are called “inserts.” No, these are NOT the flyers that are readily available at your doctor’s office. Those pamphlets are basically advertisements; I had a stack from the appointment. I read those flyers and compared them to the manufacturer inserts. Thoughtful omission. I read about DTaP and I was sick with what I had found about pertussis. We still don’t know enough about pertussis to know how to protect from it, and THERE IS NO SEROLOGICAL CORRELATE FOR THE PROTECTION FROM PERTUSSIS. This means that we don’t know how to measure our immunity to pertussis… so, we are giving a medication to do what exactly? We have no idea. What’s more is that it states SIDS can be EXPECTED after a pertussis-containing vaccine. They don’t say it can be expected after diphtheria or tetanus vaccine; they say specifically “pertussis-containing.” This is due to a study that found “more incidence of SIDS” in a small population. They’re calling it a “chance.” That being said, they call these risks rare. Some even say 1 in 100,000… big number (the number is much smaller according to the small study in the insert, see screenshot, you can pull it up yourself direct from the manufacturer’s website, link provided). Maybe it is unlikely, but if my child was that 1… that 1 is my everything. Those risks don’t outweigh the benefits of doing next to nothing. Sorry, not sorry.


Click to access PEDIARIX.PDF

Correlation doesn’t equal causation with reactions (SIDS), according to the insert. But, somehow, correlation absolutely equals causation when it has to do with the decline of disease during vaccine introduction only. Except for the fact that vaccinated kids today are the largest population of children with confirmed Pertussis. The CDC monitors communicable diseases (See the bottom chart about vaccine status in the screenshot below. They merely OMIT the vaccinated population, but I did the math. Link provided below screenshot).


There are a whole slew of factors aside from vaccines including sanitation, clean drinking water, epidemiological studies on infectious disease processes, living quarters/quarantine, and readily available medications for acute conditions that destroyed childhood illnesses… but that’s none of our business. Sure, maybe vaccination helped at one point and to a degree (to the detriment of some adults and children), but there is so much more to this story as you will soon see… I wish it were simple and clear. I wish the greater good existed despite monetary drives. I wish you health and wellness without bias.

Shalom, light, and love.


I am wife to an awesome and supportive man, mother to three rambunctious boys, and a nurse. I have been burned out in many areas of nursing including Urgent Care, Med/Surg, and Emergency Medicine. Burn-out is a significant factor in today’s nursing shortage. It is hard to find value in our work when our expectations do not align with our daily actions. Reevaluating my goals, I recognized our sickest population were those heavily medicated. I wanted to know what went wrong and how we got here. I did not want to add to the problem any longer.

We define healthcare by treating symptoms with medications; when did we stop curing patients? How are we determining health in our children? Why do we see a rise in chronic childhood illnesses? Why do we predict costs of healthcare to rise when, if effective, we should be curing people and seeing decreased costs? Are children being primed for life-long medications? Why have we reframed health in our children? Why is sickness considered normal? I don’t see my generation as chronically ill, but my children have friends and family that fit that category. These are children. How will that impact their future and society?

I also realize environmental factors and our food supply significantly influence the growth and development of our children and maintenance of adult health. I plan to offer health and immune-boosting tips for your home and kitchen, take them or leave them! They are not MAD, Mainstream American Diet.

After a series of events that occurred over the course of becoming a mother to three, I feared the future of medical care for my children and their generations. I educated myself through formal measures as well as independently, through government websites and databases available publicly and with college-granted access. I fear the loss of informed consent in America. Several states usurp parental rights daily to push corporate interests. When informed consent is lost, medical tyranny is imminent. We must no longer sacrifice our children for a fallacy. I’m glad you’re here.

Shalom, light, and love.

Semmelweis reflex: The tendency to reject new evidence or new knowledge because it contradicts established norms, beliefs, or paradigms. — Ignaz Semmelweis