Disease is NOT Normal

STOP NORMALIZING asthma, chronic ear infections, eczema, food/seasonal allergies, and neurocognitive delays. What are we doing to our immune systems that is causing these OVER-REACTIONS in our children?

Vaccines contain adjuvants that are designed to create an immune RESPONSE. Perhaps these doses of adjuvants are creating an OVER response? With any pharmaceutical there is a possibility of overt action…

》too much blood pressure medication = low BP
》too much insulin = low sugar
》too much antibiotic = bye-bye biome balance, hello opportunistic virulent and resistant organisms
》too much immune system suppression = no immune response, risk for illness

What about too much immune system stimulation? What happens when your immune system is on high alert and you eat an allergenic food at the same time? What happens when you’re given this stimulation repeatedly as a newborn with an IMMATURE immune system that still prioritizes Th2 (inflammatory) response over a Th1 (antibody) response?

That sounds like chronic inflammation. Alike… asthma, chronic ear infections, eczema, and food/seasonal allergies. The neurologic disorders may be a byproduct of heavy metal exposure (we see this with Alzheimers and aluminum in brain tissues as well as brain disorders with Cobalt hips). There is potential here, too!

Newborn immune systems lack memory and are tolerant of antigens for a reason. Babies are born sterile. They are still learning boundaries and creating the flora in their bowels that will become a major component of their immune system for their lifetime. If their body created a Th1 response to every foreign substance, they wouldn’t survive in this world… as we live in symbiosis with the microbes on our skin, in our airway, and in our bowels. Newborns must be colonized with these organisms and build up those systems. How does chronic stimulation of the immune system fit into this matrix?

It does not make sense. Vaccines are given in several doses to “create antibodies” though we know that more are added because they are ineffective in doing that in the first 2-3 doses… probably due to lack of the Th1 response, eh? So, now we give these tiny bodies several doses of adjuvant along with a fragment of a genetic component or microbe without considering what complexes are made between those simultaneous IM exposures, nor do we even study them.

The ACIP, advisory council for immunization practices, does not perform nor require adequate studies! They STATE that fact in these meetings.

So, if you still think that the voice of several thousand concerned mothers and fathers is horsebalogna, your cognitive dissonance is strong. We don’t do this to create drama. We do this to create safer practices for future generations. Mothers and fathers should not have to prove that these practices are harmful. Robust scientific evidence (not industry jargon) should prove interventions to be SAFE before subjecting our most vulnerable populations to them. Concerns should be addressed with valid studies (again, not industry jargon).

Pharmaceutical studies are done on adult populations and medications are recalled for adverse events… I think it is time for a recall, but “biologics” are not considered ‘medications’ for that exact reason…

Are we trading short-term infection for long-term disease?

Are we damaging immune systems by overstimulating them in their development?

When do we start paying attention to the parents that witness their children’s struggle to breathe, eat, and feel well? A normal child should not battle painful skin, constant stomach disturbances, nor frequent episodes of intense ear infections. This was not our (parents born before 1995) reality of childhood and must be questioned.

Shalom, light, and love.

They do not care about your children.

This has been a long time coming… So, let’s get started.

The Department of Health and Human Services neglected to study the vaccination program for safety and efficacy for almost 30 years. Surprised? What’s more is that THIS CAME OUT IN JULY AND IT WAS NOT MAJOR NEWS. Nope, not a sliver surprised about that part, eh?

How can we vehemently protect a program that is not held accountable by anyone? How do we recognize that mainstream media does not hold our best interests and will not call out the government for slipping up yet again (Google “CDC Whistleblower” for the ball dropped there and buried into silence), yet we protect a massive medical program that is instituted, funded, and promoted by that same government?

A little backstory. In the early 1980s, when the vaccine schedule increased for the first time, parents were suing vaccine manufacturers for injuries and death of their children after vaccine administration. Vaccination was new and reactions were occurring. These pharmaceutical companies realized the cost of litigation was unsustainable so they approached the federal government with plans to cease making vaccines.

The government decided that vaccines were important and they would solve the problem by taking liability off the manufacturers, absorbing the expenses, and limiting costs of litigation by capping amounts that were paid to families. They also stated that they would task the Secretary of the Department of Health and Human Services to create a task force to conduct safety studies. Thus begat the National Childhood Vaccine Injury Act of 1986 (H. R. 5546): http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK220067/

You can also look up full-text of the legislation in the congressional database. Legal jargon is so much fun to read, believe me, I have almost a decade of it under my belt. Much of it is about limiting claims, releasing liability from manufacturers, creating the Vaccine Advisory Committee, and a tidbit at the end about safety studies going forth.

The National Vaccine Advisory Committee and the Secretary of the Department of Health and Human Services were tasked to conduct studies of the entire schedule 2 or 3 years after the passing of this bill in 1986. The failed to do so. How did this come out just recently?

Robert F. Kennedy and a non-profit foundation sued the federal government earlier this year for neglecting to follow the Freedom of Information Act (FOIA) when they requested the results of the studies conducted by the DHHS starting in 1988/1989 and so forth. The government stated that no FOIA breach was made as there were no studies found. This information was released July 9, 2018. The document is here with a synopsis: http://icandecide.org/government/ICAN-HHS-Stipulated-Order-July-2018.pdf

There you have it, folks! The current vaccine schedule is touted as “safe and effective” yet this is unproven. Untested, highly-recommended, and government-approved.

Do you still wonder why parents are concerned about the changes witnessed in their children? Don’t patients know their bodies best? Wouldn’t you think there is some truth to the parent knowing their child? Why distrust the patient? What do we, parents, have to gain for declining medical interventions? Do we err on the side of do no harm anymore?

America is reactive. We are calling for studies after all these things have happened. Health should never be reactive. It is time enough that longitudinal studies be conducted to see what has resulted in our population of vaccinated people. Since the schedule was pushed on parents in the late 1980s and early 1990s, we have enough people to do a mass study. More recently, what health effects have resulted in the last 10 years after the volume of vaccines tripled? Is there a positive (or negative) correlation?

We absolutely need a study conducted by the department of HHS before another child is injured by these biologics. Remember, you had a fraction of what is mandated on the infant schedule today. A fraction of this untested medication “recommendation.”

Saving the babies is a great, altruistic cause, but this is clearly not important enough to ensure safety first. The government bodies no not care, but we do. We hear you. We stand with you.

Shalom, light, and love.


Sites to Consider:

Lesson #3.5: Education is Key to Informed Consent, Everything Else is Coercion

Part 2 of 2.

Aside from the “medical neglect” fiasco, the nurse felt like the pediatrician involving the DA, PD, and CPS stemmed from a huge misunderstanding. The pediatrician hadn’t been in to speak with me since she threatened to call the very people who visited the afternoon prior. So, the nurse convened a meeting. The pediatrician, charge nurse, and my primary nurse came in. They spoke their side. I spoke mine. I questioned everything. I got vague answers. She didn’t care to see what I compiled on my laptop. I questioned the dangers, showing her the insert. The nurses downplayed the adverse effects listed, saying the neurological effects were for older populations. One even said the neurological risks were with multiple vaccines and not for this vaccine (though, it is written in its specific insert). Somehow the immature immune system and developing organs of a newborn are more adept to take on this vaccine than an adult with fully functioning immune systems and mature organs? Or, do we ignore presentations in infants? Perhaps, we call these presentations and conditions “idiopathic” and SIDS.

My husband arrived with the kids. We discussed the issues as a group. Well, they discussed. To stop the pediatrician from prying and fear of something happening to take our children from us, we consented. Under duress. I see now that this was not truly informed consent. Consent is an act of freewill. I should have protected him better. I didn’t.

Immediately after the vaccine (over 30 hours into his life), my infant developed horizontal nystagmus every time his gaze drifted. I pointed it out, and the pediatrician did not address it. This persisted for about 2-3 weeks. At his follow-up visit, I mentioned it again and the new pediatrician did not address it. At his one month visit, the nurse and pediatrician asked for clarification about his milestone questionnaire. “He sleeps 20 hours a day?!” “Yep. Including nursing sessions, he only has 4 hours of wakefulness.” That was an overestimate. It was sometime between month 2 and 3 when he started to come around.

I spent months following his birth compiling my research and knowledge. I was not prepared for the day of his birth, and I was going to be prepared for the in-clinic visit. I am prepared today. I even researched the adjuvant ingredients. Adjuvants are substances that the body would identify as foreign and mount a “stronger immune response” toward, at least that is the theory. They’ve used Aluminum in vaccines for so long that it is assumed to be “safe” because vaccines are assumed to be safe. See how that works?

Aluminum (Al) is present in our environment. We consume it. The EPA regulates the “safe” amount of aluminum in our water. Remember, there is a difference between consuming substances that confront your gastrointestinal tract (first line of defense) and bypassing all that and placing it into your muscle for direct absorption (sources calculate absorption within 10 minutes or sustained for weeks). Aluminum is poorly absorbed in the GI tract; this has been studied. Intramuscular (IM) aluminum has not been studied. The DHHS and Agency for Toxic Substances and Disease Registry (ATSDR) states that “healthy serum levels of Aluminum are 1-3 mcg per liter.” A healthy adult (upper-end 5.5 liters of blood) would have a maximum serum Al level of 16.5 mcg. A newborn infant would have a max of 0.6 mcg Al for their entire blood volume. A single dose of the Hep B vaccine contains 225-500 mcg of Aluminum. TWO HUNDRED AND TWENTY-FIVE AT THE VERY LEAST. That is 375 times the healthy serum level for an infant! Are. We. Serious?!

The equivalent, 375 times the safety limit, for an adult is a 6,187.5 mcg Al injection. Who volunteers to test the effects of that? No? Does this not pose valid concerns? Health agencies say the amount of Al in vaccines is “extremely low.” By what standards? Why aren’t we questioning this adjuvant? It’s a neurotoxin, yet we give it to babies within minutes of life. A reckless, in my opinion, and clearly unsafe amount of it. What are the consequences of the entire Al quantity being released systemically within 10 minutes? How does that differ from a sustained release over time? Why don’t we study absorption IM of Aluminum? (Side note: I recently reviewed some documents and it looks like 2 doses of Hep B were given to my newborn, one of each type, in one single injection.)

But hey, correlation doesn’t equal causation and my healthy newborn may have coincidentally developed the eye drift and twitches 30 hours into life. My baby was simply categorized as “a sleepy baby.” Extreme drowsiness is a documented symptom of aluminum toxicity, but he was just an infant. How would we know? We have no qualms with too much sleep. If an adult acted that way, we would do a slew of tests because that isn’t normal. That’s what they tell us about anything developing after a vaccine. It is a coincidence that it developed after injection. This was a healthy newborn. That was not a coincidence. The ATSDR even reports “neurological effects” due to toxic levels of Aluminum. Don’t take my word for it, go fact check me on all of this. I’ll provide you some links.

If I only knew then what I know now, I would have demanded more from the pediatrician than a nod in your direction when I pointed out your nystagmus twice. I would have advocated better for you. I would have pressed them to acknowledge the concerns. I would have pointed out all of these facts, but mama was still learning. If I knew then what I know now, I would have stood my ground for you. You depend on me, and I won’t fail you again. Guaranteed.

Shalom, light, and love.


Sites to Consider:
Al ToxGuide: https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://www.atsdr.cdc.gov/toxguides/index.asp&ved=2ahUKEwjhlOiCjabaAhXr6oMKHeF9D-UQFjAEegQIAxAB&usg=AOvVaw0ubhOoPxYMBL-F3uSckYHf
Al neurotoxic: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2782734/
Al in drinking water: https://www.wqa.org/Portals/0/Technical/Technical%20Fact%20Sheets/2014_Aluminum.pdf
CDC adjuvant page: https://www.cdc.gov/vaccinesafety/concerns/adjuvants.html (you will see their claim to low levels link is broken) Further down the page there is an ingredient list, if you are interested.
Al MSDS: http://www.sciencelab.com/msds.php?msdsId=9922853

From Nazi War Crimes to Mandatory Vaccines: A loss of informed consent

We don’t perform drug trials on pregnant people or infants because it isn’t ethical. If a person cannot give their informed consent (fetuses, infants, and children), they cannot consent. This duty falls to the parent. Fetuses, infants, and children up to a certain age cannot tell us what symptoms they are experiencing. It would be unethical to place them in experimental drug trials. How much data could we obtain without extensive intervention? Not much. The risks don’t outweigh the benefits. So we don’t test medications on pregnant people, infants, and children… (like they did in Nazi Medical Experiments)

Instead, we freely administer vaccines to them and “monitor” postmarketing studies of which nobody participates. Even worse. Have you been pregnant? Were you vaccinated? Did they contact the manufacturer about your outcomes? Did they survey you at all? I’m guessing you did not participate.

If you were born in the 1990s or earlier, you were likely given 4 vaccines as a baby. 7 different diseases/antigens for 14 doses total. If you were born before 1983, you were given half that. If vaccines were effective, why did they completely reformulate ALL of our generation’s vaccines and replace them with new versions that are administered more often?

We don’t test babies, yet in 2018 we inoculate infants with 23 vaccines. That is 26 different antigens given 3-4x EACH by age 1. We put approx 85 doses of foreign genetic material mixed with other substances into an infant’s body within their first year of life. EIGHTY-FIVE. That is six times the number we got as infants! Is it of no wonder that parents are pausing to question this practice?

Remember, this is the body of an infant. Infants have immature immune systems. We know this. This is common knowledge. They don’t mount immune responses like adults, and we still don’t fully understand all the components of immunity. Yet, we are putting these substances into that infant and calling it SAFE AND EFFECTIVE. Why?! We are treading murky waters. We essentially force 85 doses of foreign viruses/bacteria into the most vulnerable immune system, in the name of protection that has not been proven. Correlation doesn’t equal causation… right? What’s more is, we don’t follow up with these children over time. We don’t measure outcomes. We have an opportunity to learn, but we destroy it by avoiding the topic.

There is no questioning vaccines because it is drilled into our (society, medical world) heads that all “vaccines are safe and effective.” This is a blanket statement no matter if the vaccine has been around 2 years or 2 days. Blanket. These claims are made without any data to agree or disagree with the statement. Again, we don’t do safety studies on infants and pregnant people. And, the postmarketing studies are buried. Vaccine inserts, that you’re never given at a pediatric visit, list adverse events under “postmarketing studies.” So there are documented risks, yet we are to believe and state to our patients that vaccines are generally SAFE? What?

Parents must know the risks. This is informed consent. Parents provide care for their kids, they love them more than any outside influence. Medical practitioners do not care for your kids as YOU care for them. They are not held responsible if an injury occurs post-vaccination. Parents must live with the injury, so PARENTS MUST MAKE THE DECISION. Informed decisions.

Many people call for mandatory vaccinations. This is not informed consent. When informed consent is lost, medical tyranny is imminent. No government agency should control your body. Ever. It’s dangerous, always has been, always will be.

With no safety trials (because they didn’t want to “leave babies unprotected”) the CDC recommends we inoculate EVERY BABY and refuses to acknowledge any adverse events or lifelong medical conditions in conjunction with the schedule. Not only recommend, they demand it from providers who pressure parents. This is not a system built to deliver safe and effective medical care. This is risky business. The risks are all for the parents and the business is all government.

We have a sick generation of kiddos with a medley of autoimmune conditions. Could it be, perhaps, we are destroying or negatively altering the mechanisms of immunity by creating a false response with immunizations in an immature immune system? Are immunizations confusing the body’s normal functions and causing an overreaction or permanent damage? Why aren’t we considering the implications of this practice in long-term health? How is it possible that injecting genetic components with excipients are not part of the health equation? Why aren’t medical practitioners questioning the CDC? Why aren’t we demanding answers? Blind faith is dangerous. Blind following is detrimental. (See Nazi Medical Experiments.)

May your mind be open, heart be brave, soul be wise, and spirit be strong.

Shalom, light, and love.


Sites to Consider:
How the Advisory Committee on Immunization Practices (ACIP) approves new vaccines, video clips: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7UzQqan3uF8

WWII links to Nazi Medical Experimentation:

Vaccine Schedules from the CDC:
1983: https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/schedules/images/schedule1983s.jpg
1989: https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/schedules/images/schedule1989s.jpg
2005: https://www.cdc.gov/mmwr/preview/mmwrhtml/mm5351-Immunizationa1.htm
2017: https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/schedules/downloads/past/2017-child.pdf
Main page: https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/schedules/resource-library/index.html


Lesson #2: Medical Professionals are Partners in Your Care, Not Dictators

I hesitate to continue to share my experiences, but the truth will set me free… Right?!

When I had my second child, I was already wary of vaccinating because of my firstborn’s reaction. I didn’t understand how something we deem outright “safe” in the medical world would have any downsides. Every single medication I’ve administered comes with risks. I tell my patients the side effects and let them make those choices. Informed consent. My mind thought vaccines didn’t have any side effects… or at least I never looked into it. My pediatrician never talked to me about risks, nor did any nurse who had injected my first child. But WHY?! Isn’t that our job?? We weigh risks and benefits. How are parents not subject to knowing the risks for their children?

I was tormented the months following my second child’s birth. This was cognitive dissonance. I decided that the “combo vaccine” (Pediarix) was too much of a risk to benefit my infant. I would further limit his schedule to DTaP alone. I was most worried about pertussis. Have you seen the videos of those tiny airways struggling for air when a baby has pertussis? It’s frightening.

I searched for a highly-rated pediatrician for his two-month shots. It was an hour drive, but they had great reviews. That day was surprising. We showed up and I declined everything but the DTaP injection. The pediatrician was NOT HAPPY. He was actually pretty pissed off. He wasn’t sad or concerned; he was irate. I didn’t really care about his opinion after he raised his voice and told me my baby “needed them” and he didn’t “understand why A NURSE wouldn’t consent for BASIC medical care.” Uhh… okay. Was that supposed to offend me into consent? All it did was foster more questions.

He definitely didn’t want to understand my reasons. I get it. Medical people are BUSY. They are also pressured by protocols. I do not have time to look up and memorize every risk factor for the medications I administer on an emergent basis. But those are EMERGENT. Those risks are higher than most medication risks, including death or disability. Have you seen drug commercials? Yikes. I worked in a practice that frequently prescribed antibiotics; I knew the indications and risks like the back of my hand. We also gave the same medications over and over. It is easier to educate on treatments and medications you are used to providing, or is it? When I send a patient out with a prescription now, I will give them the indication (and mechanism of action when asked) and advise them to LOOK UP THE RISKS, but common ones included [list of 3-4 symptoms] and maybe how to combat those effects. It is up to them. It’s the patient’s decision to take medications or administer them to their children. We are partners in their health, not dictators. We don’t own their bodies; we simply provide the options. So why was this different with infant vaccine schedules? They are not mandatory (lest we travel back to Hitler era medical practice and war atrocities) they are *recommended* by the CDC.

I went home and did some research and stumbled upon vaccine manufacturer websites and I finally READ THE LABELS of vaccines… They are called “inserts.” No, these are NOT the flyers that are readily available at your doctor’s office. Those pamphlets are basically advertisements; I had a stack from the appointment. I read those flyers and compared them to the manufacturer inserts. Thoughtful omission. I read about DTaP and I was sick with what I had found about pertussis. We still don’t know enough about pertussis to know how to protect from it, and THERE IS NO SEROLOGICAL CORRELATE FOR THE PROTECTION FROM PERTUSSIS. This means that we don’t know how to measure our immunity to pertussis… so, we are giving a medication to do what exactly? We have no idea. What’s more is that it states SIDS can be EXPECTED after a pertussis-containing vaccine. They don’t say it can be expected after diphtheria or tetanus vaccine; they say specifically “pertussis-containing.” This is due to a study that found “more incidence of SIDS” in a small population. They’re calling it a “chance.” That being said, they call these risks rare. Some even say 1 in 100,000… big number (the number is much smaller according to the small study in the insert, see screenshot, you can pull it up yourself direct from the manufacturer’s website, link provided). Maybe it is unlikely, but if my child was that 1… that 1 is my everything. Those risks don’t outweigh the benefits of doing next to nothing. Sorry, not sorry.



Correlation doesn’t equal causation with reactions (SIDS), according to the insert. But, somehow, correlation absolutely equals causation when it has to do with the decline of disease during vaccine introduction only. Except for the fact that vaccinated kids today are the largest population of children with confirmed Pertussis. The CDC monitors communicable diseases (See the bottom chart about vaccine status in the screenshot below. They merely OMIT the vaccinated population, but I did the math. Link provided below screenshot).


There are a whole slew of factors aside from vaccines including sanitation, clean drinking water, epidemiological studies on infectious disease processes, living quarters/quarantine, and readily available medications for acute conditions that destroyed childhood illnesses… but that’s none of our business. Sure, maybe vaccination helped at one point and to a degree (to the detriment of some adults and children), but there is so much more to this story as you will soon see… I wish it were simple and clear. I wish the greater good existed despite monetary drives. I wish you health and wellness without bias.

Shalom, light, and love.